Idiosyncrasies
Outfit Details: Bowler Hat- Local Shop
Overall Dress- Online Store
Tee- Thrifted
Flats- Local Shop
Nothing about me is unparadoxical, I am head to toe drenched
in incongruity for so many reasons. To unfamiliar eyes I might seem like the
most stable and resilient person in the whole world, I too might agree to that
if I were not <<me>>; as much as I would like to believe it I don’t
have half of the stable vibes that I emanate. If I were to describe myself in
one word it would be "Indomitable", because no matter how much I try I can’t seem
to quash my insecurities, they somehow always creep back in. And so the
illusionary placid disposition gets hit by ripples of impending (ominous)
emotions. I almost fail to fathom myself at times but each unpleasant
experience somehow helps me contain my anxieties a little bit more. But then
all that makes me <<ME>>, Me who is made up of idiosyncrasies, <<Me>>
even has a list of idiosyncrasies that "me" is proud of! The one that stands out --- "Me" needs something on her head at all times (so yes I’m trying to skip to a
more trivial subject here haha) except of course when "me" sleeps! And speaking
of my head I just can’t help obsessing over this burgundy bowler that I found
by accident! As usual! Maybe I should add <<FINDS THINGS BY ACCIDENT;
ALWAYS!>> to my list of idiosyncrasies? I went looking for something else
and found this hat instead! Same goes with the overall dress; I was looking for
a shift dress but ended up with this!
So this post didn’t go as I had planned I wanted it to be
short; but then nothing goes as planned right? It is getting darker as I type
and it seems like I’m the only one who still has some patience left to be
working (not exactly) way past the required time! and also I have to walk all
the way back home taking all those serpentine alleys that are all too familiar
in the mornings but come twilight they turn hostile; almost like revisiting a
dream that you have long forgotten about. But these walks are always a treat
for me after spending the whole day filling a desolate chair staring at the
computer screen for hours at a time while simultaneously trying to drown out
the noise that perpetually punctures the air around me. I see a gray sky with a
lonely crescent moon through my window—a striking contrast to the busy roads
and the disoriented jumble of lights from the shop windows. I feel like
stretching this a bit but I’m going to leave it for the next blog post.
Good Night to you all!
Love
Jigmet x
Love
Jigmet x
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