Begin Again
I don't know why, but I have this propensity to disappear sometimes. Not in the real sense, but there are times when I just want to lay super low. I have come to realize that I need that sometimes just to feel more at ease. It's a weird coping mechanism that I have always denied having.
The last time I felt that way was in 2019, and it's 2023 now. I am officially a recluse (not that I am proud of it, haha).
Sometimes I really can't help but miss how regularly I used to post here, the whole process that it involved: putting together outfits, location hunting for pictures, editing them, and then sitting down to write... It was almost like clockwork for me. But then blogging slowly took a backseat, and it wasn't even because I have other "exciting" things to do, like for instance, having a great social life.
Sometimes I feel a nagging urge to change everything and be this individual who likes taking risks and is fun to be around, but I shudder at the thought of projecting a false facade of myself because that won't be "ME"!
The other day, while I was working I accidentally hit the bookmark for my blog. The next thing I knew, I was scrolling through the posts, reading my thoughts from not so long ago. I was literally thrown down a rabbit hole of nostalgia.
Part of the reason why this blog holds a special place in my heart is because it has been with me since back when Instagram wasn't even a thing. It has been one of the few places where I am comfortable penning my thoughts down.
Since the last time I posted, my life has changed a lot. There have been many ups and downs, but despite all that, I am currently in a place that I have always longed to be in. Besides the relentless work-related stress, I don't have anything else that presents itself as a reason for me to lose my sleep.
I have also been able to reconnect with my old hobbies that I wasn't able to dedicate much time to, such as reading and of course, blogging (yay!). I am glad that everything is coming full circle, and I am able to once again enjoy the things I once lived for.
Jigmet x
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